Give me my flowers while I'm still here.
 
soon it'll be too late,  you'd  better  hurry


  ¶ 12:00 AM (0) comments

  Hoolie

Well, my worst fear just came true.  My landlord called just as I was enjoying the tail end of a spliff. 

Ha ha.

He wanted to know if his "industrial fan" was causing any noise disruption down here.

I can't hear it.

He knew I was up, that's why he called so late.
(how did he know I was up, anyway?)


  ¶ 11:33 PM (0) comments

  22 Hits of Acid is Tooooo Much Acid

It's not really my own death that scares me, if you want to talk about fear of death (i know, you didn't necessarily say that is what you want to talk about).

It's the death of my family,  in all its forms.

I can't quite wrap my head around what it will feel like when my parents die.  They will die.  It seems weird to live your whole life knowing you have those kind of heartaches to look forward to.   Heartache can really get to a person after so many hits.

I won't dwell on this topic.



  ¶ 2:02 AM (0) comments

  The Sleepwatcher

Living alone right now brings to mind the weirdness that was in the air after the mothership got broken into last summer.

It's creepy.
  ¶ 1:22 AM (1) comments

  Patterns in the Fabric

I've never been good at good-byes.

  ¶ 11:58 PM (0) comments

  Wanh Wanh

It is hard for me to convince myself to do the "right" thing, even when I  know the outcome may result in injury or death to my own person. 
 
I still am so tempted by the WRONG THINGS!   They are so much more FUN!!!
 
What is UP with that!?!??!


  ¶ 9:53 PM (0) comments

  Needy.

"I like you, you are a cool person, but you must drive your friends crazy.  You are SO NEEDY".
 
Oh god.
 
I already KNOW this.  I am not proud of it either.

  ¶ 4:09 PM (0) comments

  Halifax Grey

There are many people that I love a lot that have no idea how much they mean to me.  Some of them I don't even talk to or see.  I have lost track of some others, I don't even know where they are.  I wish that there was a way that I could get word to these people that they are in my heart.  Maybe by carrier pigeon.  I send them lots of good karma and they get me through some really shitty times.  I want to throw my arms around them and let them know just how much I miss them, and how present they are in my life even though they are not here. 
 
It's a little sad.
 
I remember, many years ago, a friend had two suitors.  They were fighting over her, and she was upset when the one she loved didn't put up a fight for her.  I understand that now.  But you can't make people fight battles they aren't interested in.
 
Hey lovers. 
I miss you, and I will continue to miss you until the end of time.  Hopefully somewhere in your souls, you know how much I am thinking of you all....fabric of life.  It's hard to let go of some stuff.

"How many a year has passed and gone,
And many a gamble has been lost and won,
And many a road taken by many a friend,
And each one I've never seen again.
I wish, I wish, I wish in vain,
That we could sit simply in that room again.
Ten thousand dollars at the drop of a hat,
I'd give it all gladly if our lives could be like that."

-Bob Dylan

  ¶ 10:29 AM (2) comments

  Don't Fear the Reaper

Sometimes I can feel death.
 

  ¶ 6:23 PM (0) comments

  Push Me Pull You

"I have to get a little bit angry" 
 
I didn't understand this a few weeks ago, but maybe now I see.
{protection?} 
 
I hate that it might actually be true.  I don't wanna be angry.  But I have to be.  Just a little bit.
  ¶ 11:33 PM (1) comments

  I've Done All I Can Do

I've had all I can take.

Now give it a rest, for heaven's sake.

Peace.
  ¶ 5:57 PM (1) comments

  Chimes of Freedom

I married my best friend today.

She has tought me so very much, and saved my life so many times. I love that girl.
  ¶ 9:34 PM (0) comments

  You Can't Fire Me!

I quit!

  ¶ 4:31 PM (0) comments

  IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

I got this from Robin's tribute page.


  ¶ 9:41 PM (0) comments

  One Eighty

Dal said Yes.

Holy Crap.

  ¶ 1:28 PM (1) comments

  I've Seen the Needle and the Damage Done

Studies have shown that tobacco can be harder to quit than heroin or cocaine.

Cold Irons Bound. Indeed.
  ¶ 7:47 PM (0) comments

  I Dreamed A Roller Coaster Highway

A little too close to the edge...

  ¶ 12:25 PM (0) comments